Its saturday and i have a lot of reading to do for school (as always). Worked out for the first time in a week yesterday. I need to get better at this and more dedicated. Now that I'm wearing shorts again (only around the house when I'm home alone!) I am getting more motivated to lose this weight. My legs look great from some angles and HORRIBLE!!!! from others. So it motivates me to work with what I have so far and get rid of the disgusting fat that I can see. I weight the heaviest I ever have now...so I guess there's no place to go but up now that I'm actually trying again.

So I've felt so fat lately. I need to lose a good 20lbs that I've put on in the two years since my "recovery". I forgot how much I miss it. Life seems so boring now. I hate hate hate not being comfortable with my body. It's the worst feeling, especially as summer approaches. I won't wear anything but jeans/long pants and a t-shirt. Anything that shows the form of my body embarrasses me.
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